...This Too Shall Pass...

...THIS TOO SHALL PASS...

All I can do is pray for her to find the same kind of love in her heart for herself that I have found,

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I chose to love her from afar and will not allow her co-dependency to rule my life just because it's destroying hers...

a must read: "Co-dependency No More"...it will explain a lot about SEVERE codependency and talks about how real it is as an illness...

don't forget that whoever you are, you are amazing and wonderful and that you deserve the best love and support- if you can't get it, rather than fight it, accept it, and never stop giving it...

It's my philosophy right now...

Learning to let go of my expectations has been unbelievably freeing- Especially when it comes to someone very close to me.

Being who she is is all she knows.

I will never change her. I can not expect to.

I will never understand her. I can not expect to.

I will learn from her and because I chose to learn from her I will grow... so that is all I CAN take.

One day I hope to be able to forgive her ....

... but for now I am focusing on forgiving myself...

...and it's a work in progress,

believe me.

Life is Amazing

I am so excited about my life right now...

I will have a year of sobriety next month, and I feel comfortable and confident that great things will be coming my way. I am spiritually revived... I love yoga, need to do it more, but practice meditation as much as I can and have been reading a lot of things from my spiritual teacher Wayne Dyer, the Tao de Ching, Loa Tzu, Don Miguel Ruiz, ... etc.

Lately I have been really interested in Glenn Beck and Dr. Laura.... although I don't always agree, I love listening to peoples oppinions and perspectives... :)

until next time...

Ugly Christmas Sweater (no pants) Party! So much fun!

I cut out a picture of Gary (the hosts) face and glued it to my sweater.... let's just say it was a hit and he loved it so i won! :) I still haven't gotten my booby prize yet though...all in all this was so much fun!!!

FUN IN SOBRIETY!!!

We had so much fun on Friday the 11th of December. There was a multi-stake activity for the singles in salt lake and provo county. Catered food, photography, ice skating, and dancing... so so so much fun, great memories, great people, great times!

I have made some mistakes....

I have made some mistakes in my life...

I am human,

I am not perfect...

Thank God I have the opportunity to learn from my mistakes,

Grow from them,

Move FORWARD and

Put them behind me...

But, as long as I will live...

I will Never Forget...

A Moment To Remember

Christmas 2006

I will Never Forget...

Music and Children...

What greater happiness than to have the ones you love the most inside your heart always. I have found it sometimes the only way to cope with life's most certain heartships... and the Music in my Heart continues to sing for me, enabling me to endure, create, and inevitably conquer...